SO MUCH MORE!!!

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I was praying for and discussing the heart of my friend to my husband yesterday. As I spoke about her heart and the gift she is, God revealed some amazing truths and my spirit just leapt in joy and my eyes filled with tears.

This friend is in a season where her boys are on the threshold of adulthood, and I know she is asking. “what’s next, what is for me now?”

I saw my friend as a beautiful jeweled box. It is gorgeous and serves a purpose just as it is. But inside are incredible jewels that she has yet to discover. There is so much beauty in her future. So many treasures to be revealed and shared in new ways with others that cross her path.

This is an exciting future. God is going to pour His presence in new ways and she will get to discover what has been hidden in her heart, coming into season. There will be new passions and a great stirring up that will bring great joy into her life and the lives of others.

God is going to move in mighty ways, taking the treasure within this friend and pour it forth. She will delight those that get to experience the treasure she holds.  She will have a great impact, they will be overcome.

Just you wait my friend there is SO MUCH MORE than what is expected, and not only will it be good, it will be astounding!

 

2 Corinthians 4: 6 -7 

For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” made His light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. 7 Now we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this surpassingly great power is from God and not from us. 

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The smudge on the mirror

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Last night I had a dream of a perfectly shined mirror, with a smudge of dirt across  a portion of it. I woke up and immediately thought about how that smudge can ruin the perfect shine, it does not matter how clean the rest of the mirror was, with a mark across it the mirror was messy. On more prayer and reflection God pointed out that I can not fully see my self as He sees me, when I have a smudge blocking my vision.

The smudges can come in all kind of forms. Lies that others have told us, sling some mud on the mirror. Disobedience or sin in our life, sling some more mud up there. Keeping shame and worthlessness on our shoulders, yep more mud.

Instead of cleaning the filth off the mirror, we may try to see through it, or maneuver around it. Our vision is blocked. God knows how He sees our worth. He knows how He sees our gifting and abilities. He can even see where we will go when we have our clear vision and take the steps before us.

The enemy wants nothing more than to keep our vision blocked, but God says, “it is time to clean up those areas and wipe the mirror clean.  See yourself as I see you, as I have created you. I am HE and I KNOW what you are and what your  worth. Take of the mud that has been slung before you, that either you or others have placed in front of you. I give you all you need to see clearly, it is time to wipe it all away!”

A scripture that sits on my heart as I ask, Lord how do I clean this mirror???

Psalm 139: 23-24  Search me O God and know my heart; try me and know my anxieties; and see if there are any wicked ways in me and lead me in the way everlasting.

Be encouraged brothers and sisters. He has so much for you to see in yourselves that you have yet to discover! I am so excited to see what He has for me to behold.

Psalm 51:10- Create in me a clean heart o God and renew a steadfast Spirit within me.

The Spirit reminds me as I cry out;

Psalm 139: 13-14 For you formed my inward parts, you covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Marvelous are your works, and that my soul knows very well.

Be encouraged brothers and sisters. He has so much for you to see in yourselves that you have yet to discover! I am so excited to see what He has for me to behold.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Coming home

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Lately I had found myself detached from things, it hasn’t felt bad in any way, just detached. I haven’t  felt depressed or numb, just off. Granted this has been a ROUGH month of illness, but I was disconnected.
This morning I turned on my worship music on my way to work, which I have not done in some time as sensory overload is crazy during illnesses for me. My spirit just jumped. It was as if I had a nice soothing drink of cool water after wandering the desert.

For me when I come to my Jesus, it is as if I am coming home into the open arms of my father. There is something so sweet about the presence of God. Every part of my heart filled and joy bubbles forth. It was my ah ha moment, I had been missing my worship and praise time.

I was feeling a little edgy this afternoon, antsy so to speak, and again I turned on the worship music and instantly my joy was bubbling.

You may hear people describe the presence of the Lord and wonder what that means. I guess everyone’s experience may be different, but for me it is as if I am a child jumping into the arms of my parent. I come home and I sit at the table. We share and I am blessed. A relationship with Jesus is not one way. It shouldn’t be, as we can come and fellowship and rejoice in the one that gives us life.

My sweet cousin was dealing with depression and my having revelation today, I don’t wish to give a quick answer , yet truly the worship and praise has brought me from those depths more times than I could ever possibly count.

He is a good good father and I will rejoice in my salvation!

Zechariah 1:3-
“Therefore say to them, “Thus says the Lord of host, “Return to Me,” declares the Lord of hosts, “that I may return to you, “says the Lord of hosts.

Deuteronomy 4:30-
“When you are in distress and all these things have come upon you, in the latter days you will return to the Lord your God and listen to His voice.

Remember I am no longer her

 

A friend shared a picture with me some time ago and as I looked at the former younger thinner picture of myself, I realized, I don’t really like who I was back then. I began to remember all my before Jesus growth moments, and the hurt and struggles I had been going through.  The pain of that season felt real again for a moment and then I felt the gentle whisper of the Lord remind me, “you are no longer her.”

Growth was hard, the pruning and the tearing away was not pleasant, but necessary. Each time God pointed out an area I was lacking in, I was embarrassed and mindful of not wanting to repeat that side of myself, and at times I would fail and be emberrassed all over again.

I know God is still not finished with me, I still have habits that I need to break or stinking thinking as some may say. I certainly don’t like living with fibromyalgia and a weak immune system, BUT I am no longer the her of yester year that is over opinionated, sensitive, easily frustrated, depressed and discouraged.

I am no longer that person and I am not that identity, of past mistakes and failures. I am a child of God that is growing and learning and willing to be better, to be more, to be used for His glory. I will not think upon where I was, but where I am going. Pain can not continue to rise up in my heart for things that were long ago healed and taken care of.

God is mighty enough to keep working in my life, and I will choose to let Him. I will remember I am no longer her and that is my testimony not my embarrassment !

Ephesians 4: 22-24
You were taught to put off your former way of life, your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be renewed in the spirit of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

You don’t know until you try!

21768280_10214176856040364_8280631768493054824_nThere was a picture I had seen on-line that I loved and wanted to try to paint. I have painted birds before, but this picture had birds in different directions and when I sat to draw them out I felt like it was too complicated and I would not be able to do it. I decided to give it my best shot as paint is so forgiving you can just start over again if need be.

I ended up loving the final picture of the birds. It was just what I wanted. Although the wire they are perched on is uneven and there are a few mistakes that make it not perfect, it still turned out in my eyes. I felt so excited as I saw that I stretched my comfort zone, and tried something I didn’t know how to do and  succeeded. Now would I have been disappointed and frustrated if I tried and tried and tried and kept getting failure as a result? Of course, that is how I felt with the very first bird I ever tried to paint. But if I hadn’t learned through that process, it would not have come so easily for me to try something new.

Now I am keeping my out for something else to paint that will stretch me a little more. I may try the birds again, to see if I can accomplish the painting twice in a row!

What things have you been wanting to try, but fear of failure holds you back?

How can you take new territory, if you don’t begin the steps?

Challenge my friend, try something new !

Blessings

Don’t let the Dream Die

 

So many of us have dreams of succeeding by pursuing and exploring something born within us. For myself my dreams are to write my children’s books, to finish a work I have begun with friends and to open my own shop one day just to name a few.

My husband has shared his dreams with me over the years as well as my friends and family. The interesting thing about dreams, there is an ebb and flow to them while you wait for the fruition. There are times that your dream is on fire, burning within you and you take steps towards achieving your hearts desire. Then life happens, distractions may come, or in my case illness arises and then your dream goes dormant for a while. The embers are still burning but the dream is not being stoked and tended to for a season. If left for too long and forgotten the dream may even die.

However, the interesting thing with dreams the second you take time to acknowledge them, and get other things out-of-the-way, that fire ignites again and burns even brighter.

I find these seasons of dormancy give me a clearer picture of how to obtain the reality of my dream. I gain more direction, I reflect on what worked or did not work and I research more once the light is reignited. Sometimes when we have worked for our dreams and we don’t see the immediate results we will lay it down again. Rather than getting discouraged that I laid down those dreams, I am going to reflect on the fact that I am at this moment closer to obtaining my dream than I have ever have been in history. Why? Because I have learned much and today is a new day. I will not let go of what has been promised to me. I will WORK towards that goal. A dream that is part of our life plan should never be allowed to die completely. Take the time to reflect on those dreams that would spark such passion and excitement in you.  For once a dreamer always a dreamer you will be. You just have to begin again.

 

A scripture the Lord gave me years ago, regarding some dreams on my heart that had been left to die….
Jeremiah 33:3-  ‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’

 

Reunited and SO BLESSED

 

Awhile ago, a friend and I were going through rough seas at the same time. At the time I felt she no longer needed me around or wanted me around, I let go of the friendship.  Yet, she felt deserted by me and didn’t reach out because she felt I wasn’t there when she needed me the most. We were both hurt and felt forgotten and unloved. YET at the same time, neither one of us were feeling the way that the other ‘thought’ we were feeling.

We both let go of something so very dear to us, because of how we were feeling in the moment. We both know that emotions can get in the way of truth, yet while we were broken and tore down in other areas of our lives we had been left vulnerable to the enemy and his lies.

Today is a new day and I had seen this very dear friend for the first time in too long. I tell you something just clicked the minute we were together. A part of my soul that was empty was overflowing once again. Clearly there was a place in my life that only she could fill and I had missed her dearly.

I have learned so much in this season, and would not trade those lessons, as I feel I will be a better friend. However, I would remove her heartache she experienced if I could.
I thank the Lord for the way He has grown me. To love and connect is so important and I don’t open myself to very many. When there is that heart connect I need to fight to keep it strong.

There is a great value in those deep relationships as women age and lean on one another. I am a very blessed person in deed with deep meaningful relationships, and even with all the Lord has been doing, I never could forget that heart sister that was missing for a season. We have been reunited and I am so blessed. I will not take this lady for granted ever again. Sometimes you truly don’t know what you have until it is gone. Thankfully this was a season that she was gone but not lost forever.

So blessed by grace, mercy and love of a valuable sister 🙂