I was thinking of all the times that I was going to save money and tried to ‘do it myself’
There was the time I tried to trim my bangs years ago, only to have to go in and get them fixed a few days later. They were much shorter than I would have desired, if only I would have went to my amazing hairstylist in the first place. She has always been fantastic and making sure I could afford to get a cut, so why did I cut it myself? Because, I thought the trip into town would be too inconvenient, so …snip !
Then there is the self hair color job ! Ya, that one was because my hairstylist doesn’t color hair at her shop, and there is that pesky cost, then travel to go to my amazing friend. So here I thought, oh I will just do it myself! The hair turned out; body, shirt, three towels, walls, floor, and sink stained later, I realized I could have just went in and probably saved money and a lot of headache, heck I even could have felt pampered for once!
Or how about that time ( very recently), that I was going to fix my dryer. The dryer drum fell, cutting wires, causing a fire and scaring me near to death. The fire chief had said if I was still touching the dryer as I had moments before, I could have been electrocuted to death!
Look at these three instances. The degree of damage varied. The first example was not too bad, the hair would grow back. The dye job, was a little more costly but manageable with some elbow grease and even reusing damaged towels and clothing. The last could have resulted in electrocution, leading to my demise! Even though that did not happen, there are scorch marks in my laundry room, fire department came out and dryer needed to be replaced. I put a lot of effort into cleaning the mess that was left behind. I even had three clean folded loads of laundry I just finished that had to be completely redone, along with a closet full of smelly blankets.
Where am I going with all this? My mind got to wandering today.
How many times have I tried to ‘fix’ things in my life, rather than going to the Lord, for the transformation needed within me?
There have been times I have wanted to fix my attitude, so in my own power, I tried really hard not to get angry. I would bury my feelings and by golly I was going to be kind. I would smile even though I was simmering underneath, but I was being kind! I was not showing my anger ! I had control of my attitude!!! Only then there would be that day, that everything would go wrong, everyone would push my buttons and then “SCREECH” mean woman mode was set loose!
I have learned for true transformation, life-giving transformation, I had to go to the right source. I had to go to the one that created all my intricate details. The one that knew my coming and going. Even the numbers of hair on my head. I had to go to the Lord for a renewing of my mind and transformation of my heart.
There were some areas in my life I was just not going to fix on my own. I was tired, and worn out from trying. I was burdened with my inability to repair things on my own. It was time to surrender to the one that truly knew how to do it.
I still struggle with trying to take on things I have no business taking on. Sometimes it is very hard for me to admit I need help in areas. But after I seek my own way, make a terrible mess, throw up my hands and cry out “HELP” , He always does!
I am at the point now where I want to ask, “Do you really want to try that yourself?”
1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The Lord watches over you—
the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7 The Lord will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
8 the Lord will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.