Examination of the Heart

 

Often when I think of letting sin in my life, my mind goes to the ‘big’ ones;
murder, pornography, adulatory and stealing to name a few.

It is easy for us to look at what we consider sin, and to say, we are spotless. I have heard the phrase, ‘ I am not hurting anyone’, or ‘God wants me happy’, so often from the mouths of Christians that it got me to re-examine my own walk. I had to ask myself, “in what areas in my own life was I being lazy about and letting in or being blinded to?”

I have always known my God, is a Holy God, all sin is wrong and separates me from the fullness of His goodness, no matter what scale we humans list it on.

There are consequences for all sin, not just some sins or only the big sins but to all sin. The consequences may look different, but they are there nonetheless.

We should continually be working to grow closer to God. This week, I was shocked when my eyes were opened to what I had allowed in. With Thanksgiving, there came the sin of gluttony, yes, I ate much when I was not hungry. I have battled the sin of pride, letting people frustrate me, because they just don’t ‘get’ it, when in reality, who do I think  am? There was the repenting of bitterness that I had let settle in and take root when people hurt me. Worry, is a classic battle for me, that I must address so very often. These are just a few sins in my whole life, that were not addressed and that evening, I laid them all down.

The list can go on an on, but it wasn’t until that moment that evening that I realized, I hadn’t taken time to truly examine everything, recently. It was  a personal moment of every hidden thing coming to light. It was not a sad heartbreaking moment for me, but a time of rejoicing. I had blinders removed to the things I was walking in.

To come to the point where I lay it all down, surrender all and repent has been overwhelming in some much needed healing processes. The Lord could not get to my heart, with things in the way. How could I expect fullness of my healing, when eating the wrong things for my body (gluttony) , or Joy in my heart when bitterness was standing in the way?

It is time to examine where we are now. We should always be striving to move foreword in our relationship with the Lord. We are humans, we fail, but the truth of the matter is, we don’t have to stay there. It is time to pick myself up and dust myself and start fresh, eyes forward on my Lord.

This was not the first time, the Lord gave me new revelation, it will not be the last time either. I am moving forward one day at a time. The key is to step forward, without looking back.

Psalm 25:17-18  Relieve the troubles of my heart and free me from my anguish, Look on my affliction and my distress and take away all my sins.

This song fits perfectly with the cry of my heart right now.  Awaken Me 

 

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